As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the  spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. Ephesians 2:1,2

Salvation comes to where we are, not where we would like to be.  An old hymn by Fanny Crosby - down in the human heart, crushed by the tempter, feelings lie buried that grace can restore; touched by a loving heart, wakened by kindness, chords that are broken will vibrate once more.  Enjoy the journey of being overwhelmed by grace.